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new blog, new stuff

fall+rush

old poem from a couple months ago--a very tumultuous time for me

I say I miss you

idk

but I really mean

I miss

this it and,

those things

you know that

like…

arms

held me back+

tight

before screenlight

night

time prayer

put me to

sleep

and I told

you already

I’m not…

she says

she miss

me but

we

never

been

I think I

couldn’t

be

there when

I started to

slip she’s

there falling

steady as

faucet drip

I’m gone

for now

being too

into my

own thing

to be seen

right now

her eyes

hold me

up too much

need to feel

this fall

+rush

you're

you're the
girl tom waits
sings about in
'invitation to the blues'

saving that one
for when she's
feeling really down
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AMEN , JESUS CHRIST LOVES ALL ,AND WANT'S TWO SEE KNOWONE LOST. YOU KEEP ROCKEN THAT SIGN .

Verily No one like him.Jesus i lov u

room noon3

didntsleepmuch night
dawn light surprised me
and I creaked down the stairs
and sat on the front steps

unplugged my alarm clock by accident
about a week ago and left it blinking
in its own time more or less three
hours behind normal don't know
what that means

putting away clean clothes the string+
the lightbulb thing I was doing last night
is on my desk I totally forgot about that one
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if I keep this shit up

if I keep this shit up I'll be
in some prison boarded up
behind two walls nearly
blank white cells
sitting closed on a shelf
holding in nothings like
"and wrapped around
our rough infinity
we find ourselves---"
on page 23 that no one
wants to read...
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a journal entry

thought I'd share it, had a lot of fun writing it!

feel really good and that things are clearing up. I realize that whatever I do it should make me happy+taste the air+stretch+love. That I'm here to make the outside a reflection of whats inside, so I have to make my inside full of love, peace, joy, balance, laughter+passion. Why not?Listened to all of Five Leaves Left and Pink Moon by Nick Drake today. What great albums!!!! I like him a lot because his playing is muddled+clear, his compositions are low+high. It's reflective but also in the moment. I like it and it puts me where he is. Communicates things that can't be said. TRUE ART! EXPRESSING THE INEXPRESSIBLE! OUR HIGHEST CALLING? OUR GREATEST CURSE?

FIND OUT NEXT TIME ON...

I AM
TRYING
TO MAKE
SENSE
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